GO AHEAD, KISS HER.

When you look at her, You see her face and you say to yourself,
"Go ahead, kiss her".

Kiss her like nobody else will. Kiss her surprisingly where she won't be able to do anything. Kiss her when she would be least expecting it. Kiss her slowly; taking your time. Kiss her but not like you're waiting for something else like your hands all over her body. No. Nothing like that. Kiss her like a happy child, laugh into her mouth, take in her sighs. Breathe in her fragrance. kiss her until she loses her breathe. Kiss her with her face in your hands. Or your hands in her hair. Or pulling her closer at the waist. Kiss her like she's the early morning winter breeze which when brushes through your face sends those chills. Kiss her like she is the best tempting chocolate you would ever taste.

Kiss her, Kiss her with all your love;
So that when you release her, 
She's Breathless, Tempted, Taken aback, Blissful,
Kiss her in a way by which in the end,
When you ask her, "Is there anything else she wants?"
She just has your name as her answer. 

The Fear ; The Demon

She has always hated closeness since then,

She has always felt betrayed since then,

She has never ever tried believing since then,

She has tried to be the strongest of all since then,

She has had no problems sleeping with a pillow just to shoo away her fear since then,

She has been trying to make good memories just to hide the bad ones since then,

She has been the 'Best of Her’ since then.

She was 6 then but is 21 now.

Forced Hugs;

Forced Laughters;

Forced Childhood Games;

Forced Closeness;

Forced Sleep;

The Torture still lives with her.

She smiles today because she has grown up,

She laughs today because she has people to look after her,

Because back when she was 6 that demon tore her soul apart,

Now when she thinks;

he not only did what he did but also took a part of her,

A part that makes her stay aloof from everyone,

A part that never allows her to sleep at nights,

A part that does not allow her to fall in love.

The ‘Demon’; Yes!That's what she named him;

He still exists,

Still free,

Still happy,

Still smirks while looking at her,

Still flourishing after doing what he did,

Growing up made her realise she has survived,

grim and grave;

But still she wonders how come a person who is said to be the Protector for the whole life,

Becomes the worst tragedy for the whole life which can't be dissipated,

She shivers and says

“BROTHER, a Demon”

Whisper In His Ear

And suddenly you realize, it's him.

When You find yourself thinking  about his warm embrace which is full of unconditional  love.

When your wine tastes better if he's around serving it to you.

When your eyes shine bright after looking at his Dark Brown Eyes.

When your face does not lose that Smile when he holds your hand in the Elevator when you're Scared.

When your Lips meet and you lift up your leg just like in the movie.

When he holds you by the Waist you feel the Music Playing.

When he Comes with Lilies  to make your Tears go away.

When he watches those Sappy Movies just to Share a Popcorn Moment with You.

When he Decides to Dance with you under the Pouring Rain as if it is in his Wish list.

When he drives you to his Best Place and tells you ,"You're too perfect for an imperfection like him"; But still how much he loves you and holds your hand by filling those Empty Spaces Between Your Fingers;
In the Promising Way.

Then it hits you,
Right in that Moment,
That it's only Him,
"Only Him"
Then in the Best Place moment,
You close Your Eyes,
Put your hands around his Neck,
Feel your heart beat so fast,
Feel his breath,
Have that Enticing Kiss,
Hug Him to never let him go,
And Whisper In his Ear,
"You  might not be Perfect but you  are the Perfect Ending to my Story".

Someone, Somewhere!

"You"! You are Pretty Honey.

Somewhere on this Earth, Someone adores you,
Someone thinks you are kissable and loves to worship you,
You might be reason for somebody's smile,
You might be somebody's wish.
And it is so obvious~
That somebody might dream about you Every Night.

"You"! You are a Beautiful Soul.

Dreaming is just the Beginning Honey,
Someone might just think about you and wonder about that Pretty dress you look good in,
Somebody might be making up all those intense statements in their messed up minds believing it is 'Love at First Sight'
You might be the reason for somebody to learn 'how to play a guitar',
Someone,Somewhere, might just look at your pictures and say "I wish I was the one who clicked them",
And you should not be surprised,
If you Find that somebody 'Crushing Hard On you'

"You"! You are Adorable.

Someone thinks of Hugging you so tightly, Never to let go,
Somebody might sleep just after the thought of Kissing You,
They might think of Wooing you and take you to all the explorings,
Someone might just be writing those love songs and poems for you,
And you won't mind?
If they think of slipping the ring to your finger.

You are Beautiful, Adorable and a lot Prettier than you think you are,
You should always believe in 'The Knight Riding a White Horse"

Because
Somewhere,
Someone,
Somebody,
Might be thinking of Popping that Question To you~~

Wine Glasses

She was amazed to see,
The Man was standing in her Kitchen.
That dim light above his head,
She could only see his happy eyes and broadest of smiles.

She had no idea about him being there,
Why he was there?
She had Laughed at one of his jokes; That's it.
She was scared of those Happy eyes and the most naive smiles.

He stood there with the smile and a knife,
Staring at her,
She had nothing but the Wall behind her;
She was pushed to the wall,
He was standing so close to her;
He could feel her heart racing and felt the same happening to him,
She had her eyes on the Knife.

She saw the Smile again,
He switched on the lights
And there it was!

Her "BIRTHDAY CAKE";
Right in front of her eyes,
Wine glasses, Indian Food;
He had it all set up.

He did it.
Baked.
Cooked.
And loved her.
Only her.

In the end,
"Maybe the baking and cooking did it all", she smiled and said to him.

STAR CROSSED

She was 21; a Graduate. She wanted to take care of people. She never wanted to give up on the boy on the Wheelchair.

He wanted no one. He was 23; A Graduate, a Philanthropist and a Survivor on the Wheelchair. He never wanted anyone to take care of him.

Star Crossed!

His parents introduced him to the Girl; a caretaker. She was keen on working for him, to get him out of that Highly technical but an ugly looking wheelchair. He acted as the most uninterested boy who was happiest sitting on that. He had given up; Given up on everything. Wanted to live as long as life allows him to. 

        She had no idea what she was doing. Used to take him to parks, lake side and to witness every scenic beauty possible in the world but nothing changed. Every time he smiled and taunted,"What is a Cheerful Girl doing in these Gloomy Lands?" She answered him,"To cure somebody." He never replied to those words. 

         The Anniversary Party, the Rains outside and the Dance floor inside. The GIRL in the BLACK DRESS. He never expected himself to look back twice to the Girl who acted as a crazy cartoon character everyday and was still a fan of "Charlie Brown". The boy on the wheelchair didn't even blink once. For the first time in 2 years his eyes sparkled. She came and sat next to him. She couldn't believe her ears "You look beautiful",he said. 

          He offered his hand to her, she sat on his Lap and they Danced the whole night. His parents were amazed. They never knew this could happen. At the end of the Party she was again a caretaker who took him back to his bed and put him to sleep; nursing him like Every night. He couldn't sleep. He had no idea. Those hands which were nursing him didn't seem the same. They felt magical. The BOY on the WHEELCHAIR could feel himself walking and tapping his feet. 

          He woke up next morning by her voice and he never knew he could feel this way. She had brought him a Fortune cookie too. It said 'It will never be the same for you'. He couldn't understand what was going on with him and he just wanted to think; Think twice,thrice,four times. She took him to the park and started talking about the last night.What struck his Eardrums was,"I never knew you could dance like this. You were amazing. I might just have fallen for you", she laughed. He heard it right. For the first time they held hands and looked at each other like never before. 

           She was 21 loving her technical, gloomy yet lovable life. Taking him to watch those scenes was her best task for everyday. It was snowing outside yet they decide to go to the lake side to try and build a snowman."As you like it",he said and thought to himself 'this is the day'.Car Driving. Who knew they would end up in a hospital. Emergency lights on, nurses and doctors working hard. In the end when the lights went off, she held his hands, smiled, promised and the line on the screen went straight with a beep. Doctors said,"Time of Death 07:06 PM".

            HE could never say it because He never had the chance to do so. she went with that never ending Smile. The BOY on the WHEELCHAIR;The Stunning Girl in the Black Dress.

MAYBE

Amidst the hassles of life,
You never Realize the IMPORTANCE,
Importance of Yourself,
You Lose yourself among all the Population,You become Isolated,
You forget to Exist Carefree,
Your HEART tells you to go;
Go meet new people because the old ones did nothing but Hurt You.
Your Brain tells you to Stay with them because somehow you've Survived till now with them.

But LIFE HAPPENS,
And Happens Drastically,
You meet Strangers,
You LIKE them,
There is a Brainstorm
YES or NO.
You can never Decide;
Whom to believe,
Try it or Leave it.
Because you've been hurt and the Wounds still Exist..
Strangers; NO.

You sit back and let Life Happen,
You Decide to go with the Flow,
Decide to work with the New People and FIND YOURSELF.

"MAYBE it Works"
"MAYBE its all one in the Same"
And Life Continues With or Without them.

AM I THE LUCKY ONE?

9 Months!
Waking me up every morning with the Kiss on Forehead,
Caressing my head with those Soft and Tender Hands,
The face with a smile which spreads Happiness.
Am I the Lucky One?

The Excruciating pain she goes through to bring a new life in this world,
All the pain she suffers throughout her life because we Hurt her,
Is it me or does everyone notice the Stress Lines on her forehead,,
Am I the Lucky One who would try not to hurt her in any way?

She is the most Cheerful Soul in those Small Happy Moments of our Life,
Our First Word Spoken; Our First School Day; Very First Achievements of Life,
This all Is what Matters In Her Life,
Am I the Lucky one who would be able to see those Twinkling Happy Eyes?

Hard Hitting Slaps on every Wrong Doing,
Scoldings are everyday Chores,
Life Lessons are taught everyday,
She is the Best Teacher one can get,
Am I the lucky One to get the Lessons from the Best Teacher?

Luxuries Of Life are all around her,
Cherishing the Sweet Bitter Moments,
Everlasting Love!

Am I the Lucky One?
NO.
I open my eyes and realize it was all just a Dream.
I see Her entering my Dreams and Leaving Me alone each Day.,
Neither did I See her nor will I ever get a chance to do so.

LUCKY OR NOT!

I get to See her Every Night,
Feel those Chilly Mornings without her,

9 Months and 'Both of us could not see each other.'

LEO & OSCAR

"Oscar, come back", said Ananya

"Leo is a Good Boy", said Cabir

They smiled at each other.

Next Evening,

Came together.

The park seemed happy again,

Oscar puddling in the mud,

Leo ignored of what his master had to say,

Oscar went from Brown to Dark Brown

Ananya caught the leash and shouted,

"You are a bad,bad boy, Look at that dog."

Their eyes met again,

Cabir smiled and pointed towards Leo who was standing there with dripping puddle water too.

And they laughed.

Their first ever silent happy conversation,

Cabir winked and left the park,

Ananya standing taken aback.

Next evening,

Leo ran for Oscar's leash

Ananya saw Cabir and smiled,

Until that day she had no idea of what's going to happen.

Ananya watched Oscar running around,

Cabir watched her watching him,

he smiled and sat next to her,

had nothing to say.

Leo and Oscar didn't know about the brewing conversations and friendships.

Next Evening,

Last day for silent conversations, First day for new relationships,

Ananya and Cabir watched Leo and Oscar together.

Had their bickering over dogs.

DOG LOVERS!

Evening turned into night; the dogs were tired,

Ananya and Cabir weren't.

Leo and Oscar were unaware about the Two Strangers

who were not LOST and WANDERING anymore.

RESIDING FEARS, "YES"

Every once in a while

You feel that adrenaline rush

where you want to go with the flow,

You want to do it,

you want to ignore it,

You want to avoid it,

But there is something that tells you to face it and go for it,

No Healing.

Mind fills with all these thoughts but the Heart says to go for it.

Fall hard, Try it.

Heart tells you to do it,'again and again'

Somewhere Heart Fears, going for it everytime,

because you know Smile might disappear and Tears might well up everytime you think about it.

In the end,

You decide to fall off the mountain top,

You decide to get wounds which might remain Unhealed,

You are ready and You go for it,

"YOU SMILE", 

Because somehow smile hides Fears and you take the Leap Of Faith,

He asks,"WILL YOU BE MINE?"

"YES" says HER!

"You're not her, Leave Me Alone"

Sitting on the Opposite table for two,
With a drink in his Hand,
Eyes meandering around the club,
Cigars on his table,
And the untouched food,
Mesmerised look.

Inside was crowded,
Outside was lonely,
He chose loneliness over the laughter and the talks,
Went out to smoke,
To hide his weakness,
To overcome his loneliness.

I saw his restlessness,
Caught up to his eyes twice,
His hands shivering due to the extreme cold,
Body intoxicated;
Nose red;
Teeth clattering;
Eyes Teary.

Outside in the extreme cold,
Smoking his cigars,
He couldn't even stand up straight,
The cigarette fell from his hand.

Behind all those cameras flashing,
I saw him drop down to the floor,
Running towards the door,
To pull him up again,
His eyes met mine.

I pulled him up again,
But he closed his eyes and shoved me away,
And he just said,"You're not her,Leave me Alone."

The NEW BEGINNINGS

The year was about to end. I was alone, had books, some leftover pizza, hot cup of coffee, old pictures for the never ending memories and the cheery people celebrating to the fullest.
"15 minutes to 12" and the doorbell rings. Unwillingly I opened the door when 'I saw him'!
Smiling at me with those same Starry Eyes 
Which was the most Radiant thing of my life.
I stood there staring at him when he held my Shaky Hands and pulled me Closer.
The closer I got, calmer I was
The Warmth of his hands was the first thing in days which felt like the Igniting Love!
'He held me by the Waist and embraced me with so much Love that it was all a Miracle.
Those Happy People had no idea about my happiness in that Frozen Moment.

10, I never thought he will be back!
 9, My Love never faded!
  8, I did tell him to leave but never wanted!
  7, I am weak so he never stood a chance to be weak!
  6, Holding him at that point of time, I had no fears!
  5, Mistakes, Apologies, No Regrets, I had him!
  4, Is he real or is it just that Fairytale I heard and wished it to be true!
  3, He came back even though I told him not to!
  2, He looked me in the Teary Eyes with the promising look!
  1, _________!
With the Countdown, My Love grew Stronger and with every count he held me tighter,
Never to Leave Again.
"The New Year's Kiss was the Same Old Beginning to a New Memory that was never ending."